Letting go

I'm letting go.
The feelings I have for you,
I'll let it all go.
The way you stare.
The way you held my hand.
The way you hug me tight.
Your sweet kiss.
They will all just be memories.
There's no "US"
but I'm letting go.

TOKIS

Nangako ka eh. Tuparin mo.
Sana hindi ka nangako. Umasa ako eh.
So ngayon pano na? Ganto na lang?
Try mo panindigan. Subukan mo lang.

One Proud Letranite Represent

  
Mine, Janna's and Alvin's tickets for the game earlier. Letran vs Baste it is. And yes, Patron Seats baby! I bought them last Thursday at CSJL - Intra. I really have plans to watch it BUT sadly, I don't have company. So when Janna asked me if I wanted to come, I hurriedly say yes.

Got myself this board from our school. ARRIBA LETRAN! Got myself a balloon too! Yeheeeey! Perfect for cheering aren't they?

A basketball fanatic in me. A die hard cheerleader within. A proud Letranite here! 

1st Quarter Scores.

2nd Quarter Scores. :)

Half time! Animo Red! Animo Blue!

3rd Quarter scores.

Crowd gone wild!

FINAL SCORES! ARRIBA!

That's Kevin Louie Alas, jersey #6 right there with fellow Letranites.  Kevin Alas scored 43 points tonight. It's his new career-high. ARRIBA! 

Technical fouls all over. Players and fans getting ejected from the venue. ''POGI KAMI, PANGIT KAYO!'' chant. Trash-talking. I missed this. I experienced this way back at my freshmen year. 

Front seats. Great view. Intense game. This is one of my firsts and this will not be the last. I promise!

Till the next face-off Stags! See you again on Monday. Will be watching the game LIVE! You heard me right, YES! LIVE!

What you made me feel. What I Learned.

I was holding your hands, but I can’t feel anything.

I stared deep in your eyes, but I see somebody else.

I hugged you tight, but you didn’t even try.

I kissed your lips, then that’s it.

I told you “I love you”, you didn’t even replied.

Do you know how much it hurts?

You already bid goodbye, without even saying it.

But you know what?

I don’t regret being stupid with you.

I learned fake from real.

I learned lies from facts.

I learned reality over fantasy.

Lolaaaaaaaa!

Nasabi ko na ba sa inyong lola's girl ako? Spoiled ako sa lola ko. Lahat ng gusto ko, binibigay niya. Mahal na mahal ko siya at ganon din naman siya sa akin.

Tuwing bakasyon, nasa kanila ako. Agahan namin ay noodles na may itlog, favorite ko. Tanghalian namin ay, dinuguan. Meryenda namin ay minatamis na saging. Sa totoo lang, tuwing bakasyon, nagiging bilugan ako. Sarap na sarap ako kumaen pag siya ang nagluto. Siya lang nakakapagpakain sa akin ng gulay at isda. Laging may mangga at ice scramble o kaya ice candy at ang paborito naming "jolly" sa hapon. Enjoy na enjoy ako pag bakasyon dahil nasa kanila ako. Pwede ako maglaro sa labas kasama mga kababata ko. Uuwi lang ako ng bahay para maligo at kumaen. Maligo sa dagat at magbilad sa arawan. Alam ko kasing pagbalik ko sa syudad, libro na naman ang kaharap ko.

Lumalaki na ako. Nadadagdagan na kaming mga apo niya. Madalang na kami umuwi sa kanya. Nararamdaman kong hindi na ako ang paborito niya. Nagselos ako. Nagpaliwanag siya at tinanggap ko. Nagkaron ako ng kaunting tampo sa kanya. Hinayaan ko. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko "Bahala ka"

Nagkasakit siya, andun ako. Sa bawat problema ko, nakikinig siya. Sa mga masasayang araw ko, andun siya. Pag siya humiling, ginagawa ko. Minsan hiniling ko sa Diyos, "Sana nanay ko na lang siya." Siya lang kasi ang nakakaintindi sa akin. Siya lang ang kakampi ko. Siya lang ang ready makinig sa akin.

Nung nilisan niya ang mundo, andun ako. Ang sakit - sobrang sakit. Nawalan ako ng taong magcocomfort sa akin pag malungkot ako. Nawala yung taong proud na proud sa akin kahit di ko nakakamit yung expectations niya. Nawala yung kakampi ko. Nawala yung taong alam kong naging malaking bahagi ng buhay ko.

"Lola. Hirap na hirap na ako ngayon. Wala ako masabihan ng problema ko. Alam kong mas madali na dapat ngayon kasi nasa tabi lang kita. Pero alam mo yung feeling na gusto mo may nakikita kang nakikinig sayo. Na yayakapin ka pagkatapos mo magkwento at sasabihan kang "tahan na" Bukas pupuntahan kita. Kahit sa labas na lang ako ng bago mong bahay dahil wala akong susi, okay lang. Alam ko namang alam mo po ang pakiramdam ko ngayon. Uulitin ko ito sa inyo bukas. At sana gumaan na pakiramdam ko."

A Matter of Survival

I’ve been living in this globe for 22 years now. Breathing the same air you breathe. Seeing the same view your eyes can perceive. Hearing the noise of the city we both live in.

I’ve been bombarded by bullshits.  Expectations.  Karma.  Fake friends.  Lost Love.  Forbidden Love. Haters. Lies. I can’t even manage to list them all, but the amusing thing is; I’m strong enough to overcome those. After the rain, a rainbow will soon appear in front of you to lighten up your burden. Family. Real Friends.  Real Love. Dreams. Achievements. Love and Life itself.

I wasn’t indulged with luxurious things and extravagant possessions like any other girls but I was taught to be contented with everything I own. My parents conveyed me to prioritize my needs over my wants. I learned to accept my flaws and love myself for being me despite my so-called insecurities.

I know for a fact that life’s a gift and I don’t intend to waste it. Life is a roller coaster ride. You got to be fearless and brave. After the ride, be daring and bold. Stand firm and show to the world that you’re much better now and that was just a wonderful experience to ponder and laugh at.

It’s just that, I don’t give a fuck anymore. People hate. People change. People leave. And I learned it the hard way. With all pride and honor, I am happy. Contented. Ambitious.  Just keep on dreaming. Keep the good vibes in, set aside negativity. It’s just a matter of acceptance for one to survive.

He WAS my man

Hey you, young man.
Every details you have, I can still remember.
The way you had your haircut like a child.
The way I put your cap on, you easily get pissed.
Whenever I don't give back your hanky, you get angry.
Your eyes that I find attractive.
Your nose I love to pinch.
My breathe makes your ears sensitive.
Your cheeks and lips, I love to kiss.
Your body, though it's thin, I find comfortable to hug.
Your smile that makes me weak.
Your shoulders, I love to lean.
The arms you have, I love to slap.
Your hands, though rough, I love to hold.
Your flat tummy that I envy.
That thin long line marked in your body, I can't take to stare.
The long legs you possess.
Your foot is huge, same as you.
Am I that obvious?
Every inch of you, I miss.

My October First

1. 12hours++ of sleep.
2. Got out of bed early.
3. Arrive at the office early.
4. Good morning SMS from him just made my day.
5. Productive Monday.
6. Less rice for today.
7. Helped a person in need.

That sums up my Monday. I survived the first day of October which by the way is my month. I am so looking forward for the upcoming days. And wishing that this "kasipagan" of mine will last.